unrequited
It is hard to deal with feelings when you don’t really understand how those feelings came to be or what you can do about them.
Most people would think that I’m referring to some sort of midlife crisis as I graduate from Ohio Dominican but this is something a little deeper and much harder to grasp.
I’ve fallen for someone. I don’t think it would work out. I say that knowing that it wouldn’t be possible and the feelings I have for him are not returned. There’s a part of me that wants to hold out hope.
I’ve had these feelings for quite sometime and it’s been somewhat impossible for me to move forward…on… I’ve never had feelings that have encompassed me but these have. I see people or meet someone new and I compare them to him. Things that used to be enjoyable with other people have lost their feelings. It’s as if I am just going through the motions.
I don’t know what would make me move on. I’ve never told him how I feel. I don’t want to go through with the rejection or the awkwardness after.
I don’t really talk about this with my friends either. I don’t really think any of them would understand.
Sometimes an unrequited love is just that unrequited and it’s the letting go that makes us stronger. I’m just not ready to let go.
saturday mornings are for dems
Yesterday morning I helped the Stonewall Democrats pass out some literature between first and second today in the Short North. It was a good experience but overall I found the lack of involvement from people somewhat disheartening.
In Ohio, the dems have a sizable lead against the republicans. However; it’s not always been that way and in fact this is one of the few times that there has been such a large lead between them. Political apathy is one thing that drives me crazy about people. If you do not vote, then you have no right or ability to complain about the current situation. The choice you made to give up your political power does fully denies you the ability to bitch.
I was glad that I went out and did my part. I will be voting on Tuesday and following the polls. I was somewhat disappointed more people were out helping. I hope that most vote on Tuesday and help flex your own political power.
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