Feb/060
changes
Usually things like someone telling me to fuck off would prompt this whole spiral down into depression. Sinking lower into the depths of the murky water and spending weeks trying to just make myself surface above the water.
Tonight I got into an argument with an acquantice some of you know who I am talking about, and for those of you who don’t it truly isn’t important…
Continuing on, tonight we get into an IM argument. I think he was trying to make me jealous and he was just being vague. Vagueness is something I can’t stand. Just stand up say it and move on.
Basically, I did the same childish things to him that he’s done to me. Which in and of its self isn’t the most mature thing to do but sometimes I have a desire to mimic behavior to exeplify bad behavior in others.
Well, needless to say it back fired. I got a rather nasty IM berating me about my attitude, my lack of a boy friend and my 3.0 GPA.
After asking if he was done with his insults he replied with a Fuck Off.
So yes, thank you for liberating me, thank you for not letting me worry about you or your childish games you played with me. Thank you for allowing myself to see that you were truly not worth it. Thank you for trying to insult me about not finding a boyfriend. If you were any friend you would have noticed the whole desperation and search for one is not important in my life right now.
This would have sent me spiraling down the depths of depression, but now I just realize that sometimes people have their own inner demons they are trying to work out. I’m glad I didn’t allow my wicked tongue to get the best of me. I left with out worry on how I treated someone.
This upcoming week should be challenging. I have a presentation and final on Tuesday. I am gonna run again M-W-F. I’d like to be able to get upto eight miles this week with my running. I’m working all week but my boss is gone Monday and Tuesday for V-Day. I have a few reports I need to finish up and send out. I get to be on call this week and will have the pager with me until next Tuesday.
I didn’t do much this weekend, a cancelled hockey game, replacement contacts and picked up my glasses. Hung out with some old friends in town and caught up on my reading. I’m almost finished with my January book, which is good considering it is now Feb and the book is overdue to the library.
Now it’s time to watch the 11 rerun of the L-Word before I fall asleep.
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